Obsessions
Ok, so I've recently started considering the fact that I could be bipolar and sifting through past behaviour to find potential symptoms. One such symptom is my ability to find something new and suddenly it is the only thing that matters for a period of time (ranging from hours to weeks) and then suddenly I stop and never look at it again…
So here's another list (suddenly it seems that vox is my place for lists and my MT blog is the place for real content…)
- Became a Wiccan
- Fascinated by Conspiracy Theories (amassed quite a collection of Fortean Times while at University)
- Skateboarding (this one stuck, but the obsession is much less all-consuming at the moment)
- Inline Skates
- Kites
- Chaos Magick
- Various computer games (Everquest, Wizardry, GTA, MGS, etc)
- Baking Bread
- Collectable Card Games (Magic, Mythos, Perplexcity)
- Web2.0
- Spam filtering (was running at least 3 seperate scanners on my email at one point - only using CRM114 now)
There are probably more, but that's all I can think of at the moment.
Comments
Hi there... please don't mind me just -dropping- into your journal... :)
You know... and please don't think I'm downplaying the possibly of being bipolar... however - - I am the same way. I launch into new ideas/hobbies/religious studies/etc. with passion and then *poof* just let them drop.
I used to think this was horrible (mostly because my mom was always bleeblabbing at me about how I am inconsistant) - however - what I've realized is that it's a wonderful gift to have a new interest sparked and to have the COURAGE to pursue it until it's no longer of interest to you... Most people - get interested in something but lack the passion to pursue it so opportunities and learning just passes by and fades away...
Anyway - - just wanted to share another perspective.
Take care.
Dan: Nice spot. I'd completely forgotten that one. And it's reminded me of another one too — juggling. I have about 4 sets of juggling balls (although I only know where one set is) and a couple of books too.
Urban Princess: I don't mind you dropping in at all, welcome :)
On the whole bipolar issue: Until I've seen the psychiatrist its just a self diagnosis and its quite possible that I've got it wrong (I blogged my feelings about exactly this last night — parental advisory, linked post has strong language); however there are a great many things in my life that would be explained if I'm right… I've always known that I've suffered with a level of depression that most people are not and I've even been on medication for it over the past couple of years. The up periods where I get struck by sudden creative inspiration and the urge to start new hobbies, etc are great and I wouldn't give them up. It does get to be a problem when I decide that I need to speed a thousand pounds buying a radio controlled helicopter when I'm out of work, spend months putting it together just so and then lose all motivation to put the last couple of bits on, never fly it and suddenly money I couldn't afford to part with is doing nothing but gathering dust in the loft.
And then there are the mixed times, where I'm not depressed, but the slightest thing makes me intensely angry and I get the urge to break things or hurt myself. Dan knows about how destructive I can get in these moods…
I'm not sure I'm bipolar; I am sure that something is wrong though.
Heh, there's more interesting information in this comment that there is in my whole blog here so far ;)